I truly hate my ex-girlfriend. At the peak of my youth, i thought i got it all down. A great band, friends, job and that bitch.
Deep down, i feel so angry at myself for being so vulnerable and stupid.
I do admit i was naive. I still am though. It was total humilliation when i discovered she left me just like that. I wasted another year being hooked to her hopin i'd have another shot with her.
And all that time, everyone seems to disagree with my intentions and hope and that i should move on. I didn't listen and i got more hurt after that when she went off for another guy instead.
Furious. Every night on the bus ride home, i would chide myself that i should have broken up with her at the very beginning when she told me she liked another guy. I hate coming back to this regret every time but i can't seem to erase it.
Money wasted was one issue but what was more devastating was the time i invested in that relationship.
I'd never be able to claim the years back.
I'm so stupid.
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